<[Jacob]> you spin in circles without falling down. i enjoyed this piece quite a bit. i do not agree that hope and self-deception are the same thing though. hope is a faith projected into the future, while self-deception is false faith projected into the future. these are just lame definitions and the dynamics only come with experience. this experience has occurred most frequently in my life when i humble myself before the metaphysical reality around and within me that i could never comprehend. conversely when i lean on my own understanding i tend to an insanity of intellect without relief. again these things come with experience i think. and again i humble myself as a dumbass before these definitions and ideas. what the fuck do i know? my blog is damn mess to say the least. i find your refinement an inspiration and hope to follow by consistent exercise.